What To Do?

It’s one of those nights when you get off work and you just want to relax.

I pushed my way through some exercise at home–and that’s after running this morning before work–and I even managed to edit a chapter. Work is done for the day and so am I.

I can honestly say that despite my passion for movies, I’ve never gone to the movies by myself. Tonight, I think I will be breaking that record and going to see Silver Linings Playbook. It’s either that or stay at home and watch Shame, starring Michael Fassbender.

Both movies look incredible and it really comes down to whether or not I’m too lazy to get in the car and sit by myself in a theater because no one I know wants to go see Jennifer Lawrence and Bradley Cooper for two hours. The fools. I’m not sure which I’ll decide to do, but I can promise a review for Silver Linings Playbook on The Now if I go see that.

I just hope I don’t get raped on my night on on the town by my lonesome. That would be horrible. And probably ruin my Valentine’s Day plans considerably.

Psychosexual Drama

Psychosexual Drama, Hopefully

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How To Fail An Interview And Keep Moving Forward

Well, as the fates would have it, I failed my interview on Wednesday.

This is what I get for attempting anything. Failure.

Game Over


To be honest, it’s a relief that the interview process is over. Was this job the focal point of my life? No. Am I depressed? Not really. I did try to get the position at work, but I didn’t give it 100% and I know that I could have prepared more. I learned a lesson, Fate. It’s been a while since I’ve actually tried to accomplish something outside of writing and even though I didn’t become an Assistant Manager, I do get to breathe again and focus on what I’m really passionate about: writing. I only wish that I wasn’t so nervous so that I don’t feel like I disappointed some of the co-workers that I’ve mentored and trained. My cool, calm, charming demeanor was crushed under the tidal wave of nerves. I should’ve taken that shot of whiskey before.

I’m going to improve my attitude at work and try a little harder to accomplish goals that will only benefit me in the long run. Maybe I’ll go for the position again in another department and keep moving up. Assistant Manager can’t hurt your resumé. I need a decent job to pay the bills and support myself while I write until the day that I’m a successful, published author. I’ll find one eventually and in the mean time, I’m better off than most at my current position and I need to RELAX.

Everything happens for a reason. This is the lesson that I’m constantly learning.

Teaching, management…I need to stop focusing about getting a paycheck and focus on my writing and creativity. Selling so many copies of my book last week really opened my eyes and motivated me. Now that the interview is over and I know I didn’t get the position, I’ll grow at work and continue to pursue my vision of becoming a published author.

To the future, minions.

Money Ain’t A Thang…Unless You’re Trying To Save It, In Which Case, It’s A Horrible Thang

Mo money, less problems…because I’m not an idiot and I’d just buy the solution to any and all problems that would ever arise. Duh.

What is wrong with this world? Why is it so hard to save any money? 2012 is eleven days gone and I had little savings to show for it.

I try to budget and take 30% of every paycheck out for spending while the rest goes to bills and savings. It was working out, but by the end of the year, I fluctuated from the 1,200 I had before December rolled around. I’ve abolished buying food from work. It’s ridiculous. I work at a grocery store and a huge percent of my paycheck goes into buying food needlessly throughout my shifts. It’s not my fault the damn sushi and subs are so expensive.

I was advised by my incredible financial advisors–my mother and sister–that I should put away money into a savings once a week for every 52 weeks in the year. They said start backwards from $52 dollars so that by Christmas I am only putting in $1 that last week. This way of savings means that I’ll have $1,300 tucked away into an account. It sounds like a good plan to me and hopefully it works out. I’m really lucky my financial advisors are so original. By original, I mean being able to read the Money section of the Sun Sentinel.

Sometimes I wish that I could spend money I don’t have and continue to keep spending because the government would keep raising my spending cap each year. God, I know that sort of thing would never happen, but isn’t it great to dream that you could end up being trillions of dollars in debt and not have to worry about it because your kids and grandkids will be the ones trying to pay it off because you’ll be dead?

Oh well. I know everyone is struggling to save these days. I’m open to any and all advice in investing for my future. Hopefully I do better this year. All I can say is that I won’t be buying a DeLorean under the pretense that I will be able to go back in time to become rich. Fool me twice.

Thursday Morning

I’m sick. Not only of working for “The Man” and trying to make sense of everything while trying to find my place in a society that says I had to get a college degree, but doesn’t give you the opportunity to find jobs immediately after graduating. I’m sick of all that, but I really just have a cold. Hopefully not the flu.

I’ve given out a few copies of the sequel to Daylight Hours to some test readers and I’ve gotten some really positive feedback. It’s definitely helped revitalize my creativity. I was worried that anyone who read/enjoyed the first book, wouldn’t like the second in the series. So far, things look good.

As all of my test readers will attest to, I need to fix a lot of grammatical errors, but I feel that the novel is right where I want it to be. I’m still doing another couple of revisions because I battle with perfection. You all do see the problem with being a perfectionist when you know that nothing you create will ever be exactly the way you envisioned it. Look at that. A paradox.

I’ve been posting new chapters of Daylight Hours here for free every Monday and Wednesday for the past few months. Spread the word, people. Chapters 1-22 are here to be read for FREE. Considering that I’m considering trying Amazon’s Kindle Direct Publishing services, read the chapters here while they’re still up. Trying Amazon’s KDP Select would would make Kindle the only way to read a digital copy of Daylight Hours. It’s got it’s benefits, like being able to promote the novel for FREE downloads for 5 days out of every 90. I’ve heard positive things from the sheer number of readers who download Kindle books immediately simply because they’re free. Hopefully this would be a good way of getting Daylight Hours to more people who will hopefully enjoy the novel enough to write a review.

There are some cons: No more Daylight Hours for Nook and I’d have to take down the free chapters I’ve posted up so far here on the website. The paperback will still be available at Barnes and Noble as well as Amazon.com so that’s good.

Decisions, decisions…Who knows what I’ll do because I sure don’t. All business aside, I’m looking forward to Christmas because two days after I get to celebrate my 6th year with a certain amazing woman who somehow manages to put up with me.

This cold better vanish before then.